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I’ve Been Living My Dream & This Is Me Telling How It Feels Like.

Anin | Suara Senar Nirwana ⑇
5 min readDec 9, 2023

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In short, it’s … indescribably confusing — surreal.

In all of our imagination, living the life we’ve been dreaming about would be absolute joy, all time happiness, and indescribably making you smile from ear to ear. I can’t lie, I have those moments too. However, at times I keep on asking myself — is this real or not real? (I for real write and read this with a heavy breath).

It’s 19h now, and I am sitting comfortably on a desk typing this story while looking at my husband who is my bestfriend I’ve known for almost 10 years, who for the last 3 years has been in close proximity to me, and for the last 1 year has been dating with me. The most confusing out of everything is that we are together, living in our apartment, in Sweden. Yes, in a place 10,000km+ away from our home. Surreal.

The past days, I keep on telling my husband that if I were to tell him last year that next year, we’ll already be married, and we’ll be living our life together in Sweden, we both will think that I am crazy. Oh, don’t even go so far. If you say this back in May 2023, we won’t even believe it. However yeah, crazy things happened, this happened — and I still can’t believe it.

I could say that upon my arrival to Sweden back in August, I’ve been experiencing extreme jetlag which is not over even until now, counting to my 4th month being here. And that being said, my jetlag is not with the time, but with my life. So many things have happened in a so…

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Anin | Suara Senar Nirwana ⑇
Anin | Suara Senar Nirwana ⑇

Written by Anin | Suara Senar Nirwana ⑇

A Muslim | Environment & Sustainable Development Policy student-researcher. Love to turn my experiences and perspectives into writings. IG: @annindsa 🍉✨🇮🇩

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